February 25, 2020

A Letter to My Toddler

My sweet Nova Violet. You are so special to me. A lot of things have been weighing heavily on my heart that I feel I need to document so I will never forget them. 

I love this season with you. You are almost two and a half and I find myself struggling to understand how that happened so quickly! Which is the most cliché thing to say in all of mom history ;) But it's true! I still feel like it was just months ago that we brought you home from the hospital but here we are. You are walking, talking and doing life a lot more independently than you were all those months ago.

I want to bottle you up and have it stay this way forever! But I would be naive to think that things will always stay the same. You are constantly surprising me with all the new things you are learning and how much your personality continues to flourish each new day. 

Sometimes I catch myself feeling sad when you don't need my help putting your shoes on or putting your dishes away. I catch myself wanting to do it for you or helping you even though I know full well that you know how to do it just fine. It's easy for me as your mom to feel unneeded, even when you are just two and a half years old.

But then I remember something. It doesn't matter if you know how to put your dishes away or how to put on your shoes without my help. It doesn't matter because when you do need me, you come to me knowing that I am there for you. Knowing that I will embrace you and give you the love that you need in that moment. And my sweet Nova Violet, this will always be. I will always be here for you. 

When you get in your first fight with a friend, I'll be here to listen. 
When you make a mistake, I'll be here to help you get through it.
When you feel upset even over the smallest thing, I'll be here to give you a hug.
I'll be here for your first love and heartbreak, through good days and bad.

Because my vibrant, smart, kind Nova - I am rooting for you. I want you to have those bad days, fights, heartbreaks and to make mistakes. Those are what will make you stronger and make you into the wonderful woman I know you will become. And even when it seems like the world is over, I'll be here to help you pick up the pieces. I will always be by your side.

I don't want you to ever forget how much I love you. I'm so excited for your future. But for now, I'll enjoy watching you color outside the lines and feeling your little arms wrap around my neck for a tight hug.

I love you my sweet girl.

-Your Mama

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