May 24, 2018

n o v a : s e v e n | m o n t h s

The first feelings of Nova's kicks are still so vivid. I can almost feel it when I think back to being pregnant with her. Those first kicks came a little later than when I was "supposed" to be feeling them. I never worried too much knowing she was most likely just fine. But that first time... It was like all this weight had been lifted off my shoulders that I didn't even know I was suppressing. At this point in my pregnancy, I was just beginning to show and all I could think about was how this teny-tiny person could have such a strong kick!

About this time last year, we had just found out we were having a girl. I really wasn't too surprised when we were told the gender. I had been having dreams about our baby and it was always a girl, every single time! Not that it really meant much since I had always wanted a baby girl first so my dreams may have been bias. Anytime I think back on when I was pregnant with Nova, a find a huge smile on my face because how grateful I am for where we are today. 

| h e r  s e v e n t h  m o n t h |

we have two bottom, adorable teeth!

crawling up on her knees but still prefers to army crawl

sleeping through the night from 7pm - 6am

tried pureed meats, zucchini, corn, rice, lots of berries, broccoli, apricots, oranges!

uses mommy as a real-live jungle gym during playtime

waving with her whole arm!

loves to splash in the tub

still nursing and loves to cuddle with mommy and daddy

I've been asked a couple of times now why I don't include a postpartum update on myself in these posts. Postpartum life has not been very pretty on me. I struggled with postpartum depression and anxiety for quite some time. It really cleared up just within the last several months, thank goodness. I have also been told that it is possible that I fractured my pubic bone during birth. Regardless of the hard stuff that comes with having a child, I am so grateful that I have these struggles. Being a mother has changed my life for the better. Even if it is incredibly hard to watch my baby girl grow so fast!

Time can be a cruel thing for a parent. Watching your child grow is both wonderful and heart-aching. I truly enjoy watching our Nova grow into the strong, happy baby that she is. All in the same moment of joy, I experience so much pain for the time that has passed. I wouldn't trade those emotional roller-coasters for anything. All the heartache and amazing moments of being a mother are so beautifully sewn into my heart. Motherhood is beautiful.